A Show? Music? Make A Decision!

Last night I watched the historic live YouTube broadcast of U2′s show in Pasadena, California. U2 has always inspired me. All 4 of them at some point gave me the impetus to pick up an instrument and play music.

As I watched I got inspired again. I thought, “Why can’t I do what they do?” Now granted I’m not supposing I can be in the biggest band in the world. They’ve worked at it for almost 30 years. Still the dream and the inspiration they gave me are both real and tangible.

For a while now I’ve had this idea of starting an Internet TV show about music. The idea has gone through different versions. It always comes back to me talking about what I love, music. I have enough contacts in the music biz to make the show interesting. Once I got momentum who knows where it would lead?

Then I think, “Wait, I want to be The Edge or Larry Mullen, Jr.! I don’t want to be interviewing those making music, I want to be making music!” Ok then what am I doing to further that? Dear readers I admit, my passion for making music has waned to deep sea levels. My songwriting ground to a halt once I stopped taking voice lessons.

When I was playing with Kevin Spencer he challenged me to practice and to become a better drummer. Last week I watched a show with Morning Lights at The Masquerade that I’d filmed. At the time of that show I was practicing about 30 to 45 minutes a day. My fills, my groove, my tone and my confidence were impressive, to me! Clearly this states that I have discipline, ambition and excellence within me. All I need is desire. Aha! Desire!

What do I desire? Where are my gifts best used? Why did I lose my passion? Does the Lord want me to use music to glorify Him? Am I a guitarist or a drummer? Does it matter? Who am I doing this for? Have I missed my chance? These are the questions that swirl around in me head from time to time.

I believe that when I set out with a clearly defined goal, I will accomplish it. What’s it gonna be Jam?